YOU WILL NEVER BE MY GOD, FELIX.
img img YOU WILL NEVER BE MY GOD, FELIX. img Chapter 1 โ€“ ALWAYS A HORRIFYING BIRTHDAY.
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Chapter 6 โ€“ VOICES IN MY HEAD. img
Chapter 7 โ€“ WHAT HAPPENED LAST NIGHT img
Chapter 8 โ€“ CAN I EVER NOT BE FAKE img
Chapter 9 -- ERASED. img
Chapter 10 - I WOULDN'T LISTEN TO ANYONE. img
Chapter 11 โ€“ HOPELESS AND HURT. img
Chapter 12 โ€“ HATE TO LOVE YOU. img
Chapter 13 - ALL IN MY HEAD. img
Chapter 14 โ€“ DO I REGRET IT img
Chapter 15 โ€“ WHAT WAS THE REASON img
Chapter 16 - ABANDONED. img
Chapter 17 - WHY img
Chapter 18 - I'M DUMPING YOU. img
Chapter 19 - THE TERMS OF THE CONTRACT HAVE JUST CHANGED. img
Chapter 20 - AND IF I REFUSE img
Chapter 21 - YOUR REIGN IS OVER. img
Chapter 22 - STAY STRONG ENOUGH TO WELCOME A BLOW. img
Chapter 23 - I HELD IT IN FOR SO LONG, NOW I'M LETTING IT OUT. img
Chapter 24 - IF I DON'T HAVE HIM, NOBODY CAN. img
Chapter 25 - BURNT ALIVE. img
Chapter 26 - THE PUZZLE 1. img
Chapter 27 - THE PUZZLE 2. img
Chapter 28 - A SHADOW OF MYSELF. img
Chapter 29 - IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN YOU. WHY WAS IT YOU img
Chapter 30 - FOR BETTER OR FOR WORSE. img
Chapter 31 - A DESPERATE SEARCH. img
Chapter 32 - GOOD THINGS DON'T LAST FOREVER. img
Chapter 33 - THE SACRIFICE TO BE FREE. img
Chapter 34 - I HAD A LOT OF QUESTIONS. img
Chapter 35 - TOO LATE TO SAY SORRY. img
Chapter 36 - EVERYONE IS IN PAIN... CHEER UP. img
Chapter 37 - A SMALL TOWN. img
Chapter 38 - CRYING FOR SOMEONE WHO'S NOT REALLY DEAD, JUST MEMORY DEAD! img
Chapter 39 - DEAD TO THE WORLD, BUT ALIVE. img
Chapter 40 - LONELINESS IS HUMAN. img
Chapter 41 - THE BIRTH OF A NEW ME. img
Chapter 42 - OUR LOVELY CONFRONTATION. img
Chapter 43 - NEMESIS EXISTS AFTER ALL. img
Chapter 44 - WE WOULD BE HAPPY AGAIN. img
Chapter 45 - LET'S KILL JUDAS FOR JESUS. img
Chapter 46 - A FEW FEET AWAY. img
Chapter 47 - A COWARD. img
Chapter 48 - I'M HERE TO STAY... I WON'T LOSE YOU. img
Chapter 49 - I FELT EVERY BIT OF IT. img
Chapter 50 - IT'S YOU. img
Chapter 51 - I JUST WANT TO BE WHERE YOU ARE. img
Chapter 52 - THE DISTANCE BETWEEN YOU AND ME NEVER SEEMS TO DISAPPEAR. img
Chapter 53 - DESIRES ARE DANGEROUS. img
Chapter 54 - IGNORED LIKE A DISEASE. img
Chapter 55 - GOOD SIN. img
Chapter 56 - DON'T WAKE ME UP. img
Chapter 57 - I WISHED THE HAPPINESS I FELT WOULD NEVER SHATTER. img
Chapter 58 - FORCED TO BE STRANGERS. img
Chapter 59 - FALLING INTO DEPRESSION. img
Chapter 60 - JUST CAN'T HELP BUT STAY. img
Chapter 61 - LOVE LANGUAGE. img
Chapter 62 - GO BACK TO WHERE YOU CAME FROM. img
Chapter 63 - FUEL THE FIRE. img
Chapter 64 - OUR ONLY HOPE TO SETTLEMENT. img
Chapter 65 - AFTER ALL THE TROUBLES WE WENT THROUGH. img
Chapter 66 - EVERYONE DISAGREED. img
Chapter 67 - COULD I HAVE HALLUCINATED img
Chapter 68 - TOO MUCH THIS TIME I GOT PARALYZED. img
Chapter 69 - IS THERE A WAY OUT img
Chapter 70 - WHO'S BLOOD IS IT img
Chapter 71 โ€“ HOW DID WE GET INTO THIS MESS img
Chapter 72 - WE WERE WORRIED ABOUT THE WRONG PERSON. img
Chapter 73 - IF ALL WAS LOST. img
Chapter 74 - YOUR ENEMY IS RIGHT UNDER YOUR NOSE. img
Chapter 75 - HUMANS GET SWAPPED. img
Chapter 76 - IT'S A TRAP... RUN. img
Chapter 77 โ€“ TIME IS THE ENEMY. img
Chapter 78 - CRAZY PSYCHOPATH. img
Chapter 79 โ€“ I LOST ALL HOPE UNTIL DEATH CAME KNOCKING. img
Chapter 80 - WE BARELY ESCAPED. img
Chapter 81 - IS ALL HOPE LOST img
Chapter 82 - WE ARE A FAMILY. img
Chapter 83 - GOOD LUCK FOOLING US. img
Chapter 84 - I SEE WHY I CAN'T GET OVER YOU. I MIGHT AS WELL DIE WITH YOU. img
Chapter 85 - I CAN'T STOP REMEMBERING THAT KISS. img
Chapter 86 - DIRTY DISCUSSION. img
Chapter 87 - LEARN TO SURPRISE PEOPLE. img
Chapter 88 - ONCE BITTEN TWICE SHY. img
Chapter 89 - I'LL FIND A LEGAL WAY TO KILL YOU. img
Chapter 90 - ONE STEP FORWARD AND THREE STEPS BACK. img
Chapter 91 - I WANT ALL THE TEARS BACK THAT I CRIED. img
Chapter 92 - THE VIOLENT TAKES IT BY FORCE. img
Chapter 93 - YES, I CHOOSE DEATH. img
Chapter 94 - I'M GOING TO DO THE JUSTICE MYSELF. img
Chapter 95 - I HEARD SOMETHING. img
Chapter 96 โ€“ MAYBE I SHOULDN'T HAVE LOVED YOU. img
Chapter 97 - I'M FRAGILE. img
Chapter 98 - SLOWLY PUTTING THE PIECES TOGETHER. img
Chapter 99 - TABLE SUCCESSFULLY TURNED. img
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YOU WILL NEVER BE MY GOD, FELIX.

Ringing The World
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Chapter 1 โ€“ ALWAYS A HORRIFYING BIRTHDAY.

๐Ÿฆ‹ BENITA ๐Ÿฆ‹

On September 25, 2009, I lost my mother when I was just 10 years old. That same day, my father remarried, bringing a stepmother into my life.

Ten years later, on September 25, 2019, I was uprooted from my father's house and thrown out, like a weed. I found myself sleeping in the filthy corners of the street before I began working in a bar where I also had to sleep.

On September 25, 2020, I got into serious trouble that nearly cost me my life, and I had to pay off the debt with myself.

Then, on September 25, 2021, I was sold to Mr. William Cunningham, the aging CEO of Julian Financial Services. He was old enough to be my grandfather. It was on this cursed day that the real horror of my life began.

Just a year later, on September 25, 2022, I attempted to escape from Mr. William by climbing over a wall, but it only resulted in broken legs and nothing more.

It's always the same date: September 25, the day of horror-my birthday.

And today, on September 25, 2023, I'm trying once again to save my life, though I fear it won't end well because it's September 25.

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I ran down the dark, quiet street, my bare foot bleeding from the countless cuts I acquired from the sharp objects my foot danced on while trying to escape.

My stomach cried from starving for days, and my throat tightened from thirst.

But I ignored every pain in my body; the most important thing to me at that moment was escaping. It would be worth every single pain I feel right now if I find a saviour.

A car zoomed past me, and I chased after it with torn clothes, breathing heavily and screaming, "Help!"

The car didn't stop, and until it was out of sight, I didn't get tired of chasing after it. I collapsed to the ground, my heavy and fast heartbeat was mixed with tears of sorrow. If only my mother weren't dead... would my life have turned out differently? It all started with the death of my beloved mother.

I saw another car speeding towards me, dragging myself up, I stood at the center of the road, it was my last hope โ€“ you either save me or kill me.

The car came to a stop, I puffed out a sigh of relief. I thought my terror was over. Four men stepped out of the car, and with the last strength I had in me, I whispered, "Please help me!"

The front man chuckled sarcastically, and before I knew it, three men were holding me down, and the last one was on top of me.

I already knew what was going on, but I had no strength to scream or fightback, I just mouthed, "Help me!" continuously and wept silently while the four men I thought was going to save me took turns in raping my virginity out of me.

The pain was unbearable, compared to all the physical, emotional, and mental abuse I've been through, I felt worse. My life was just not worth living.

At that moment, I felt like everything was taken away from me. My sanity, my dignity, my self-confidence, and my hope. It all shattered into bits and evaporated into thin air.

When they were satisfied, they began to beat me up, kicks and punches, I got them all. I was only lucky they had no gun or knife on them because it appears they wanted me dead to cover their crime.

Not a single part of my body wasn't injured from the effect of the abuse, and when they thought I was dead, I watched them jump into the car with half-closed eyes.

Hopeless and tired, I gave up, and for a second, my heart stopped beating.

Thrown back to life, I inhaled sharply and began to cough out blood. Even death wanted nothing to do with me... how unfortunate.

I picked my broken self up, my thighs were covered in blood. I tried to walk, but I couldn't, so I crawled instead.

After crawling for several distances, my knees began to bleed. I looked up and saw a police station in sight. Weeping happily, I stood up and endured the pain, feeling motivated.

I got to the police station in no time, and at one glance, they could tell I needed medical attention, so without asking any questions or asking me to write a statement of whatever happened, I was taken to the hospital and given food and water.

For that hospitality, I will always thank the police officers.

After a few days in the hospital, once I was ready to be discharged, I was taken back to the police station.

When I got to the police station, they handed me a pen and paper and asked me to write a statement. Before I even got started, the chief of police received a call, and the only thing I heard was, "Yes. We have Miss Benita here in the station." After that, the paper and pen were taken away from me, and I was told I no longer needed a statement, because someone had already explained what happened.

Confused, I went on to explain, I said everything I have been through without leaving anyone out, and the police chief responded, "I was told over the phone that you were going to say whatever you just said. I'm glad he already told me; I might have fallen for the lies you just made up. As for those who raped you, we'll fill a report on your behalf."

I was devastated. I stood up and attempted to run, but I was pinned to the ground and handcuffed like a criminal, the real criminals was roaming around freely, the real criminals did this to me, so why the fuck am I the one in this stupid handcuff?

A few minutes later, a car arrived, and Mr. William, alongside all his men, stepped out of the car.

I began to tremble, "Please don't let him take me," I cried out, but nobody was on my side.

It was like the police weren't even there at all, or they were blinded to whatever was happening. I was packaged into the car, and boom... it was back to square one, back to the exact place I ran away from.

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