Chapter 5 5

The last message was yesterday, when my husband died and his car fell into a ravine. It said that

this is your last day, do you enjoy your remaining time?

I immediately stood up and picked up my car keys.

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I decided that I would go to Draven's office at night, when there weren't many people. I put on a

jacket and pants, went through the secret passage and went straight to Draven's office, there was

a guard below and the guard's rotation was every one hour.

I sneaked to the door and made sure that I didn't make any noise, to avoid the guards. I use the

flash light of my phone, I walk closer to Draven's desk, the door of Draven's office is locked and

this is his job, he is the only one who holds the key to his office.

I sat at the table, opened the lampshade and the table had a mess of papers, it looked like nothing

was wrong but there were crumpled pictures there.

I opened all of them, shocked because it was all pictures of us with Draven and others with our

son.

I went to the trash and it was all crumpled paper, most of it was death threats and photos. My

hair stood on end, because we had a picture almost every day, until the day before we got

married.

I feel stronger now, I want to complain to the police, and how did they immediately say that

everything was just an accident less than a day ago. And how come the brake of Draven's car is

broken , if every car of ours has a regular check up, before he uses the car he makes sure that

there is no problem.

I leaned back and my chest was tight, he is having this problem since when, he can't tell me, I

didn't know that my husband has a big problem, he's just nervous, I feel useless, I didn't even

help him and feel sorry for him.

I feel useless, what kind of husband am I, if I don't know his problems, why does he have to hide

it from me. If I had known this, I wouldn't have lost Draven from us.

It's hard not to blame myself now, I only felt more and more my shortcomings as his wife. I

closed my eyes and took a deep breath, breathing deeply again and again, I need to know who

did this to my husband, they are going to hurt me. Don't just be the person who saved me, when I

had nothing to cling to.

I hid other pictures and death threats, I took some pictures and looked at the door. I heard a

rustling. I quickly turned off the light.

I opened his laptop and it opened immediately, it has a password and I know the password. I

quickly used my acc to be a back up, I deleted some mails that said that mine had become a back

up account. I also changed the password and set up some alerts when someone tried to use or

open his laptop and account.

The shock of my feet got stronger and I quickly turned off the laptop, ran to the door where the

outside of it was an emergency exit, I ran hurriedly and didn't look back. I was surprised and I

had a flash drive in my hand, I can't remember if I got it from the trash, but I pocketed it. I kept

running and when I passed the back door of the building, I quickly went to the nearby convenient

store, bought water and cigarettes.

I have to calm down, I also need to get the clips from Draven's office, what I know is that there is

a camera inside, but only Draven has access to it, maybe he doesn't trust those people, so he lets

it out without a camera in his office and he doesn't want it.

I sat on the side and lit a cigarette, mesmerized by the cars passing in front of me, my car was

there and parked. How will I act, what will I do? Especially when I found out that someone was

really threatening my husband's life.

I can't be indifferent, I don't want justice for my husband's death.

I played with the lighter in my hand, I bought more alcohol and started to drive to Caliraya, even

though it was far I wanted to get away from everyone I knew.

My left hand was on the window, while the window of my car was open and I was driving the

slex, I blew out the smoke while the speed of my car and I couldn't stop my tears, they were

falling and my chest was tight.

I've overtaken several cars, it's like tearing and squeezing my heart, I'm not used to being alone. I

can't bear to see myself drown in this sadness again. I know that on some part, I don't deserve

him because he is too good and pure for me, but I know that I do my best to be a good wife for

him.

Even though it was difficult at first, I did it, but now that I've gotten used to it, I suddenly lose it

and it's like it's a curse on me to be happy and give my life peace.

"Why!" I shouted and slowed down my pace, turned slowly and slowed down, drowning in

alcohol and looking at what I was passing by.

"What a shame, I don't deserve to become happy at all, but Draven deserves to live, not like

this."

I can't help but blame, because why is that, the good people are missing, they deserve to become

happy, life is unfair.

I'm holding the bottle of wine and I bought some food earlier, I didn't have any clothes and the

only thing I brought was in my car, the phone, laptop and the one I got from my husband's office,

I've been nervous for a while. Because someone notified that Draven's laptop was being opened,

since I left after thirty minutes, someone sent me an alert.

I went back to the place where Draven and I had fun, I'm in Caliraya and it's going to rain today,

the sun didn't show up and it rained in the afternoon.