Chapter 4 The revelation

As I lifted the cup with the intention of drinking what it contains, I became nauseous. The scent the bleach gave off triggered a sudden urge to vomit. I dropped the cup and sprinted to the bathroom. Hovering over the toilet, I open my mouth to vomit but nothing happened. I remained on my knees with my head over the toilet for a good three minutes hopeful that the urge I was feeling would manifest into reality but still, nothing happened. I stood up and walked to the door as I heard someone knocking. I opened the door and standing in front of me was a smiling Jay.

I looked at him with an expressionless face which he was clearly confused by. "Okay, someone's not jazzed to see me", he said. He stepped closer to pet my face as he realized my facial expression was no different to what it was fifteen seconds ago. As he stepped closer, the scent of his perfume revived the previous urge which was now starting to die. I ran to the bathroom and this time around, I vomited. Jay ran in after me and pulled my hair up into a bun in an attempt to aid me. I stood up and pushed him away as I said, "get away from me, you smell horrible", while making my way out of the bathroom. " Here, let me help you", he said as he grabbed my arm. "Don't you have someone to be with forever in this world and the next?" , I asked as I felt all my strength depart from my body.

I woke up in what seems to be a hospital ward the next day. As I tried to sit up, I heard I deep voice beside me telling me to rest. It was Jay , looking worried and one might say, angry. ' oh no, have I been diagnosed in with some sort of life threatening illness?' I thought. "Am I dying?", I asked him. He was mute. " Whatever illness it is ,trust me, I can take it" , I added. He remained mute. I stopped talking as I realized that I had previously told him told him that he smelled bad, maybe that was why he was angry. It was dead quite until a nurse came in to check whether or not I was awake yet. "Congratulations sir", she said to Jay as she left to go get the doctor. I looked at her in annoyance. I mean, what exactly was she congratulating him for? Bringing me in or winning a Nobel peace prize? The doctor walked in shortly and began telling me how my health was in good condition and that I would be discharged within a few hours. " Once again congratulations sir, make sure you do not stress her out", he said to Jay. " Uhm, what exactly are you congratulating him for? , I cut in and asked the doctor. " Oh, well I assumed that your husband here had already shared the news with you" , he replied. I stayed mute and looked at him puzzled, signaling that I had no idea what he was going on about. " Well madam, you are two weeks pregnant", he said. " Come again" I said to him in a calm tone. As he was about to speak, Jay cut in and thanked him for his time after asking him to excuse us.

Upon the doctor's departure, I looked Jay in the eye and shook my head from side to side. " When were you planning on telling me?", he asked. "Telling you what?" , I asked back. " Telling me what?, that you were pregnant obviously!", he yelled. " I had no idea, and even if I did, why would I tell you. Don't you have a wedding to plan?" I answered. For the first time ever he looked at me in annoyance. I felt a sudden chill down my spine as I realized this was not the time for me to be difficult, there was nothing stopping him from beating me if he wanted to. "You are one sick human being" , he said with disgust. " Are you seriously angry that I'm engaged?", he asked. "If you are then we know who should be given the title of the world's dumbest person" , he added. I stayed mute as tears began to flow down my face. I opened my mouth in an attempt to speak but no words managed to escape my lips. " You will abort it before you came home and when you are done, you can call your husband to come and pick you up", he said as he left me in tears on the hospital bed. I just sat there in horror and disbelief. "Is this the same man who would pleasure the life out of me anytime I wanted?...is he the same man who would ask me about my dreams and goals in life?", I asked myself. Then it occurred to me, never have I nor will I be or mean anything to Jay.