Chapter 4 Heartbreaking news

Chapter 4

The entire room was quiet, my heart beat was steady and slow.

He stood up to put on his record player and came back to his bed were we layed down

He sang with the song we were listening to

"I'm jealous of the rain, that falls upon your skin.

It's closer than my hands has been, I'm jealous of the rain" he sang....

I was so overwhelmed.

My love for him grew in a twinkle of an eye, I was so speechless.

He then asked me " do you know whose song this is?"

I replied a "no"

Then he said " it's a song by labrinth, I love him so much. When my dad was alive he always played labrinth songs"

I felt very bad hearing that. My dad was more or less dead to me but his was different. He shared a special bond with his dad before death stole him away.

I couldn't look at him face to face so I looked at the ceiling still lying on his chest

He then turned my face and kissed me and we both slept off.

His love for me was unrefined.

I woke up and I looked to see if he was still beside me on the bed but he wasnt.

I walked towards the parlour and called his name but there was no answer.

I went to his room quickly and picked up my phone, dailed his number. His phone rang, he didn't leave the house with it.

I packed my bag and I sat in the parlour confused and stressed.

His mom immediately came in crying and stood up quickly and hugged her.

"What's the problem Mrs raven?"

"It's James he came to me at 6am telling me his right eye was hurting so I took him to the hospital and he was diagnosed of cancer of his right eye, so he has to remove the other"......then she broke down in tears again

"He is at the emergency ward now"

I calmed her down and assured her that everything would be fine even though I wasn't really sure.

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I couldn't wrap my head around the fact that James was completely blind but he surprisingly used his senses very well.

He was given a dog which will walk with him whenever he decided to take a walk .

He always found his way to my backyard in the evening and would trow rocks at my window till I responded.

I held his hand tight while crossing the road.

Every body in school knew me as the girlfriend of a blind boy but I didn't care.

"Why do u still love me"? He asked as we both sat on the street bench with his dog roaming around.

" I love you because you are an amazing person, you made me feel like I have a place in this world and I wasn't invisible. You helped me deal with my insecurities. I don't know, it feels like you loved me back to life" was my response to his question

Then he was quiet for a period of twenty minutes

He said "I feel like we shouldn't be together"

I became sad and asked him why he would say something like that to me.

Didn't he hear what I said?...

James replied "Beacause I'm blind silly girl, you cannot love a blind boy. You have a bright future; i don't want you spend the rest of ur life taking care of a blind boy"

"I can't believe this, Are you fucking kidding me?"

Then i carried my bag, holding back my tears I walked home.

I didn't see him again the next day..

And the next week.

I didn't want to visit him because I felt heartbroken.

One certain day, I dressed up in my sports wear to go to school in before the rain started falling heavily.

I sat down in my parlour with my mom waiting for the rain to stop so we can both go out to our various destinations.

My mom still worked in a mall and she always loked excited whenever she was going to work.

My mom switched the television on and went through the different channels. Like every other parent she loved watching alot of programs and she would invite her friends to our house to keep her company since my dad no longer lived with her.

We both watched some cartoons for a little while and then she put the news channel for us to watch and see what's going on.

That was the first time in months since I stoped watching or listening to news.

I stopped watching the news because when I watched it on a daily basis , my anxiety increased and I noticed that I was having nightmares and anytime I watched the local news I had this thought that I would probably get killed just by leaving the house.

It often felt like the news was created by terrible people to provoke your fear responses and stress.

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We sat there still waiting for the rain to stop when a news of a teenage boy who was hit by a moving truck while crossing the road with a dog.

I felt really sad.

Seeing that the rain had reduced I stood to leave and I stopped when I heard the name of the teenager that was hit.

James raven!

I sat down to listen to what happened and I wanted to make sure it was my james.

My heart sank.

I looked at my mom and she came towards me to hold me tight.

I cried so hard that I could feel the pain in my forehead.

So many thoughts ran through my mind at that moment.

It felt like I was in a night mare.

My body became heavy and I couldn't lift my hand .my mom gradually cleaned my tears

"Everything will be fine honey, I'm here for you"

I cried and screamed till our neighbors dogs started barking.

I fainted on my mothers arms like a lifeless human being.