Chapter 2 Second Chapter

S A D T E E N series

Love me back to life

Chapter 2.

"Felicia !" my mom called my name with tears rolling down from her eyes.

I gradually opened my eyes, my vision was hazy and my head felt very heavy.

The thick smell of different categories of medicines filled the room.

My mom held my hands, I looked at her but my vision still wasn't clear.

"Mom, where am I? " i asked and then I took a deep breathe and gradually exhaled

"You are in the hospital dear, I heard your scream in your bathroom and then i......" she stopped talking.

She brought out a handkerchief and wiped the tears on her eyes.

Then she continued.

"I ran and I saw you bleeding from ur nose, lying on the floor; I called 911 and now your here"

Two nurses and a doctor came into my ward, they asked me series of questions and I explained to them what I saw.

"Whenever you hear voices, felicia; please try and tell your mother or close friends, overdose of certain drugs can kill especially if you take too much of your depressants into your body, you are lucky nothing bad happened to you".

The doctor said to me.

And then I nodded.

The doctor also explained to me that schizophrenic patients often experience auditory or visual hallucinations and I shouldn't feel bad about it.

I stayed in the hospital for two days and was finally discharged .

Everything changed after I had been discharged, I felt like my thoughts were being controlled by an outer force, I wanted to stay with my mom often.

It felt as if time became very slow and my perception of some things changed.

I had this urge to make friends and finally leave the four walls of my house.

My mom came back from work and she called me to the parlour to sit with her.

I knew something was fishy and I hoped she hadn't been sacked from work.

I prayed silently.

"I think you should go to a real school!" She said with a very beautiful smile on her face.

" you are very lonely, you don't have friends, you are always on your phone.

Your private tutors don't complain about you but you should experience how life is outside your room. I met with the head teacher of Parkville high school and she agreed to let you in because your grades are good"

"Okay mom" I replied her

"On saturday we will visit Sarah, she is pregnant"

I couldn't believe how my mom could be so kind, Sarah took my father away from her.

My mom knew my dad was having an affair with Sarah, his co worker but she didn't say a word to him.

I've always wondered why my mother was so subtle and her temperament towards everything was kind.

"If I got married in the future and my husband leaves me for his co worker i would never talk to his wife, her children and her extended family even if something tragic happens to them."

I muttered to myself.

My mom came towards me, she hugged me and I felt so much comfort in her arms.

It felt like I could feel her strength and pain.

The intimacy between my mom and I was priceless.

Summer break was over and I was to be enrolled into parkville high,

I was so happy that I would meet New people.

That early morning my mom took me to school to see the head teacher Mr albert.

He welcomed us and told us the criterias of being a student of Parkville high.

I was given three pairs of uniforms and 3 pairs of sport wears, I was also shown my class and locker.

It was a private high school and everything was organised.

The next day i left for school, I took deep breathes before I had the courage to enter into the school.

Mr Albert escorted me to my class.

"Good morning students, this is Felicia and she is new here, please treat her nicely" he said with a loud voice.

I walked in quietly, avoiding eye contacts and I sat down. I heard my classmates whispering and then anxiety crept in.

I wasn't the only new student ; I didn't know what he looked like because I didn't even bother to look at his face, I couldn't look at anyone's face

He sat close to me and then the whispering continued.

"Hi Felicia , I'm james"he said to me

For a moment I forgot how to breathe; his voice was the most euphonious masculine calm voice I had ever heard in my entire life on earth.

Several thoughts ran through my mind, I didn't want to speak.

I didn't want to reply so i didnt.

I made him feel embarrassed; I could see it on his face even when I looked at him and he smiled I could tell his smile was fake.

Few hours ago I was so happy and eager to meet new people but at this moment It wasn't exciting to me anymore.

It was time for lunch and everyone had gone to the cafeteria, I walked in the empty hallway and I observed how everything in the school was put in place.

I walked to the cafeteria then I sat alone and slowly ate a red apple while listening music with my earpiece plugged into my phone.

I watched James slowly walking towards my table with his lunch.

"Hey, can I join you in the table please"

"Yes!" I replied.

"Why are you so quiet" he asked

Then I rudely replied him with a question

"Why do u care?"

Then there was a minute silence between us. The whole situation was awkward and I felt like disappearing into thin air.

We got to know each other, we spoke alot on how we gradually lost interest to exist. I told him concerning my schizophrenia and how it damaged my social life.

There was something strange about him but I didn't know what it was. He was so kind to me; it felt like everything wasn't real, like I was in a dream.

After school we would walk around the neighborhood talking about a lot of things. We had most things in common.

We had similar taste in music,we both loved Greek mythology and we understood each other so well.

He was once a drug addict but he promised me he had been clean for 3 years and I believed him.

We spent most of our time together, which was cool cos' he had written a lot of books online and I was privileged to read all of them without going to some random websites online and actually paying to read them.

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One certain day, I felt so lonely and strange, I knew something was definitely wrong but my mind was wrapped around the bitter sweet news my mom told me early.

My step mom Sarah gave birth to twin babies.

I sat in my noisy class lost in thought , wondering what was so odd about that particular day until I realised James wasn't in school.

I didn't have any other friend to talk to because nobody tried to become our friend.

The weather changed and I went home on wet clothes when lectures were over.

Three days had passed and James still wasn't in school, it was very depressing.

He wasn't picking his phone calls and also wasn't replying my text messages.

The next week, heading towards the library ; I walked pass our head teacher's office.

His door wasn't shot,I heard a familiar voice so I peeped through the small opening .

I saw a woman dressed in an Orange gown.

She looked familiar, she wore a large round eyeglass and tears rolled down her eyes as she spoke with mr albert.

I thought deeply and finally recognised her .

Mrs Raven, "James mom"!

I tried to listen to their conversations but they spoke in low tones.

My heart skipped, I ran to the restroom and cried too .