Chapter 1 Walk of shame

~Xyana~

'Pig, fat,' and ugly' have become names I'm now accustomed to. I used to think I was beautiful until recently. All thanks to our Alpha's rumored mate, Oksana.

Ever since she started deriving pleasure in dehumanizing and abusing me because she thinks I'm too fat for her liking, my life got enveloped in an endless stream of never-ending chores.

She will call me 'Pig' over and over again and I'll always answer her with a 'yes ma'am.'

She makes sure I don't get to enjoy a moment of rest during the day. I work at the farm, the pack daycare, the kitchen, I scrub the floors; I literally do everything. Yet she's never satisfied.

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Today, Mrs. Sal, the pack's Matron, assigned my best friend, Jiya, and me to clean the Alpha's living room.

She must have taken pity on me and decided to give me an easy task that I'll spend most of my day doing.

As Jiya and I focus on our assigned task for the day. I suddenly feel the hairs on my neck prickle. A dull pull follows, drawing me towards the large private balcony outside the room where rumor has it that the Alpha plunges in his stick into readily available holes in the pack.

Since the strange pull I'm feeling wouldn't stop, I let it guide me. Jiya frowns when she sees me moving towards the entrance of the balcony. "I'll be right back," I whisper and she nods.

Getting to the entrance, I peek out of the corner of my eyes and see Alpha Kedar's back. The pull still won't stop. So, I step out to get a clearer view.

Excitement shoots through my veins. I feel my wolf's excitement. She's ecstatic. After many years, I feel her again; how is that even possible?

My wolf is demanding. 'Him, him, him. He's ours!'

I raise my eyes to Alpha Kedar and meet his gaze as he turns to see who is behind. I'm supposed to look down, 'You don't meet an Alpha's eyes.' That would be seen as a challenge.

He's going to have them hang me outside the pack house because I just challenged him. But I can't help it.

'Mine, mine, mine.' Juno, my wolf, mewls.

She paws at my ribs, wanting to come out. But I don't even know how to let her anymore, and that is crazy.

'Mate,' Juno whines louder pleading with me to let her out.

How is Alpha Kedar my mate? Isn't he rumored to be mates with Oksana? Kedar turns slowly, offering me his face first, and his body follows. Then I see Oksana, standing up from in-between his legs. She was sucking him off in a barely secluded balcony.

'Such an irresponsible man!'

The balcony might be shielded with large carved balustrades that might prevent one from getting a clear view of whatever they might be doing, yet it doesn't change the fact that they're being irresponsible by making out here.

People from downstairs can still see their upper body. Let's not talk about the steps connecting the balcony down.

'This man cannot be my mate.'

Oksana stands up and glares at me, placing her arm around Kedar; she calls me, "Pig, what do you want?" She kisses Kedar on his mouth.

'No. Ours!' Juno lets out an inhuman wail that fills my ears from inside my skull.

Suddenly, I'm shifting. My spine rips out of my skin. Pain explodes over me at the splintering bone and shredding muscles. I'm getting torn apart. I scream, collapsing to the ground.

And I lay powerless on the floor, staring unblinkingly at them. Oksana's jaw dropped. Kedar is raging; his fists are clenched as if he's straining to control himself.

My vision is now sharp and focused. I can hear voices far and near, murmurings, sounds... I can smell everything. Semen, Blood, stale food, even Oksana's perfume, and she's rubbing it all over my mate.

Enraged, I leap, baring my fangs. Whatever made me think I could attack Oksana?

I lunge at her and she dodges me so easily, mocking me with her laughter. I hear gasps and whispers around the stairs connecting the balcony down and realize we now have an audience.

Yet, I can't seem to be able to stop. 'Fuck this mate bond.' Oksana laughs again and kicks me in the ribs. Then she snarls. Suddenly, she shifts so quickly that I'm not prepared one bit to meet her wolf, a beautiful, off-white, big she-wolf.

She instantly goes for my throat. Her fangs sink into my collarbone, ripping a chunk of my skin. The pain is blinding and I instantly slump to the floor.

"Enough!" Alpha Kedar yells.

I'm losing blood, I'm fading by the second and none of them is doing anything about it. They are willing to just stand there and watch me bleed to death?

Oh no!

"Shift," Kedar commands.

My bones instantly obey, cracking again, even the broken ones, snapping back into place, and I'm back to my human form.

Naked and exposed, I curl into a ball and watch as Oksana slips into a free dress someone brings for her. But nobody gives me any clothing.

Oksana smirks, licking my blood from her lips. I draw my knees close to my chest as I tremble. I dare to look at Kedar's face, he's glaring down at me.

My stupid wolf mewls for him. She can't seem to understand the situation of things.

"Stand up," Kedar snarls, his voice low. But I can't, everyone will see everything... my body. "What's the meaning of this nonsense you just did?"

I swallow a thick saliva and muster the courage to say it since he's pretending like he has no idea. "You're my mate," I whisper back.

Oksana laughs like she's raving mad. Kedar stares at me like I've gone nuts. He squats down to meet me.

"The Moon goddess won't mate me to a spineless, defenseless, weak, and worthless Elephant like you." He says and even with his cruel words, my wolf whines and cries out to him. "I have a mate and a type. Clearly, you're neither of both. Someone like you can never be this pack's Luna."

I start to cry. Nothing hurts more than this. Not even the pains Oksana has been subjecting me to all these years. Juno cries with me.

'Why is he rejecting us?' She cries in my head and I shake my head as the tears slip down. I don't know why he would reject us.

Kedar signals to his Gamma, who seems to be blocking our little audience from coming closer. When he approaches, Alpha Kedar points at me, anger evident in his voice.

"Get this fat, shapeless Cow out of my presence. She attacked Oksana. Have her punished from now till dusk. She deserves nothing but death for what she just did."

Gamma Reeder nods and turns to me, "stand up, or I'll drag you up," he says to me.

I finally stagger to my feet, struggling to cover my nakedness as much as I can. As we climb down the stairs, squeezing ourselves among the crowd at the stairs, the males leer and smirk. Some of the females, too. A few of the elders present are staring at me, disapprovingly.

Mrs. Sal and Jiya are standing very far away, horror on their faces. They don't dare come closer.

When we climb down, more crowd are gathered downstairs. I take my walk of shame. As I walk, my love handles flap, my thighs juggle, and the shame is unbearable.

Everyone sees everything, and no one, no one stretches out a piece of clothing to me.